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Name: Lonny
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Cupertino
Birthday: 11/22/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: being lazy
being bored
chatting
hanging out
being sad
being glad
Expertise: being a 1337 person and being a MASTER PROCRASTINATOR!!!!!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
2/11/2003
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| so this is the part where lonny begins to stress out. things have not been going well for me. my mom has been getting more and more frustrated with me (big surprise there) because i can just never seem to measure up to her standards (whoopeedoo i think i stopped trying to do that years ago) and im pretty much the biggest failure she has ever seen. but then again thats probably most kids to their asian parents. she always complains i go out too much. well duh. im a senior, and i can drive. put two and two together makes FIVE (1984 anybody? even though ive never even read it =P). yeah so this week has been absolutely horrid. my mom knows i have a C+ in chinese even before i do, and hmm i wonder why i have a C+? probably because my chinese is the worst in the freaking CLASS thats why. and whenever i ask my mom for help, do i get it? yes. but is it agonizing to the very last second? absolutely. so why even ask for help if shes just gonna yell at me nonstop saying im stupid 10,000 different ways in cantonese for not knowing how to say or write certain words. so yeah. and on top of that my spiritual life has finally faltered. though i think ive brought it back up. it wasnt very pleasant. though i suppose i cant expect not to make mistakes right? so i guess ill call it improvement. i guess the only good thing thats come out of this is for once in my life im beginning to like math. scary thought isnt it, failure lonny liking math. variations also isnt looking too well. to put it blunty, we just suck. i fear for our performances. did i also mention that ive barely started college apps? and apparently private schools need this retarded portfolio thing thats due quite soon and i didnt even know about it until today? yeah. its lovely. school is lovely. home is lovely. life is lovely. i have nothing much else to say.
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so a little while after i posted this, me and my mom got into a huge fight. like the huge ones that only happens a few times a year. yeah well. basically she was so fed up with my "attitude" i was basically not allowed to go to church from that day forward. and well. thats big for me. for instance, im a part of the worship team and im a cell leader as well. that would not be good if i were unable to go to church ever again. im saying rather calmly. if theres one thing my mom doesnt understand about me, it's how much church and God mean to me. i feel ive changed so much since going back to church, and spiritually i feel ive matured and come a long way from where i was before. it has helped me overcome obstacles and kept me so much happier in general. God has helped me through so many of my struggles that i really wonder where i'd be right now if i had not gone back to church. for her she feels that i waste my time because i spend 8+ hours a week at church doing who knows what for no good reason (obviously because she doesnt believe in God), and yeah...nothing hits me harder than having my church-going life threatened. i cried. i havent cried in a very very long time. and at around 7:30 my mom and i had another verbal battle which ended up in both of us crying, and well...she reluctantly let me go to worship practice. and i suppose church too. so i went. and afterwards i went late to a prayer meeting. and we prayed about it. and all in all i suppose i feel a lot better. thank God its friday tomorrow. and thank you all who knew about this. thanks for supporting me and comforting me. i cant ask for better brothers and sisters =).
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| so apparently now parents have signed up for schoolloop, and schoolloop emails them everything thats emailed to you. so pretty much they know your hw and your grades. i mean grades sure they can know about that. but now my mom always reads off my freaking hw and i said i dont care! i know my own freaking hw. and she freaking yells at me to check my attitude. seriously, whatever. i dont need shit like this to make my relationship with my family even worse than it already is. go die schoolloop. you suck to the max. why did you have to implement parents into it. good freaking game.
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| when someone asks you why you were smack-talking him/her earlier and you know you havent, what do you do? when you try to tell that person that you didnt do anything of the sort, and they refuse to even TRY to hear your side, what do you do? when that person in the past has been hostile towards you for reasons you dont know of, and this happens, what do you do? when that person was FINALLY beginning to be friendly to you, and this happens, what do you do? when you barely even know that person, and this happens, what do you do? when this happens, tell me, what do you do?
edit: so my day had been bad ALREADY, and then i find out just now that during lunch some asshole crashed my car when i wasnt there and didnt leave any contact info, leaving my car looking like this:
a couple more of those and my car will almost look like hien's! (no offense hien)
yeah. and i have a calc test tomorrow which i am royally screwed for
make my day worse, please?
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| so since i havent posted in a while since school started, i suppose ill update ya'll on how life's been going for me. well i have 2 insanely hard classes. that would be calc bc and chinese ap. thankfully for calc i have deruiter. UNthankfully i have wang for chinese, but its not like i have a choice. but i got an 87 on the first calc test, so maybe...just MAYBE i might survive in that class. chinese...well chinese has always been hard for me. and wang only makes it more difficult for me. but anyway enough about that. so lately ive had this craving for arizona iced tea. and i come home and whaddaya know! my mom bought a fatty pack of them from COSTCO. i freaking love that place. and my mom. im excited =). so three day weekends are awesome. do you know why? not only does it make the weekend LONGER. it makes the next week SHORTER. yeah. cool huh? so i must say ive barely started college apps. actually i pretty much havent started at all. can you say SCREWED? i suppose ill start my personal statement this weekend or something...yeah we'll see how lazy i am =P. getting out a lunch every day is quite the treat. sometimes i get so carried away i have 5 hour lunches with cool people. or have 2 different lunches with different cool people. or just...hang out for a really long time in general. yeah. awesome stuff. though i should probably get crackin' on my hw. so in that light, i leave you with this:
3 words: summer retreat 2006
cabin 22. everlasting.
=)
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if you look carefully, you can see the ball right below the batter's hands. its sort of a white blur =P
